Hopefully It Will Have Been Worth The Wait.

It's been a while since I last updated, and things have been looking mostly up. Allow me to fill you in.

Firstly, I built up the courage to tell my parents about my gender issues, and to be honest, I think I was highly over reacting. It maybe made it to the top three most emotionally stressful times of my life, but nowhere near close to the most stressful, but that's another story we won't get into ever. At first, it was a tad awkward, but by now it's got to a point where it can be talked about almost comfortably (with Mum at least). I won't lie when I say I'm kinda proud of myself for confessing.

The support Mum has given me is amazing. I'm incredibly thankful to have a mum like her. I know she'll never really be comfortable with the whole thing, but without her I wouldn't be able to get through this. I hate to sound cheesy and mushy and all that, but she really is the best.

I'm coming very close to having a chance of receiving hormones, after booking appointments and getting referrals and all that complicated medical mumbo jumbo. Hopefully with a bit of luck, I'll be on my way to happiness.

With this new found confidence of mine, I managed to pull myself together, truly concentrate and got myself enrolled in a sound production course at Box Hill. This has only been the first week, but I really feel that this is the right course for me. I've always wanted to contribute as much as I can to the world of sound, but I know I can't be a master of all genres, as much I'd like to be, and as much as I try, no one man can have all that power, so learning how to record allows me to still be able to contribute something awesome by helping it get out there.

It makes me feel good that maybe one day I'll have helped someone who had real talent, and helped get their ideas heard. That makes me feel like I've done good.

In other news, that playlist blog idea I mentioned in my previous post is now up and running (or walking hurr hurr hurr), which you can find here under the name of Shuffled. The name's a bit lame but it's better than some lame ass alliteration. Hopefully all of you who are into music can come across something you dig now and then that you haven't heard. That's would make me feel good.

I'm not sure why but I have this strange obsession with spreading music around, I love getting people into something they might never have found themselves, it almost feels like I'm broadening their musical horizons just a little bit. I just love it.

The band is doing great, just yesterday I'd say we'd played one of our greatest shows ever. I missed having a legitimate crowd like Atlantis Is Burning did, but you know what? Am Farrows crowds are ten millions times cooler than AIB crowds because when I told an AIB crowd to move, the just readjusted their crossed arms and bobbed their heads a bit more, but when I signal an AF crowd to move, they fucking move. It's the best feeling. This is why I became a musician.

Also, I lost some weight and bought some androgynous clothes, I feel good about myself, better than I have for a long time. This most likely contributed to this new bout of confidence.

Other than that, things are going smoothly, I'd talk about the whole Brooklyn thing but I promised to be quiet about it on the internet so I'll stick to my word. I suppose if you wanna know my opinion on the whole thing, just ask me in person.

Also, Ash Hull is pretty cool now, I don't blame him anymore.

'til next time,
Mat (Yes, I'm going to stick with this new spelling, It's kinda andro, don't you think?)